I’m finally ready to write again, inspiration and motivation are back! Yeahh
But what I did during this long time without writing?
First: too many rescue, too many for my mental health, too many for my body, for my couple, for what I was supposed to support.
Let’s be clear i don’t regret anything! They needed me and I’m always grateful for be able to help rodents in detress.
But my life was only cleaning cage, socializing , free range cage per cage ( it can take 6 hours per days for let each cage have enough time to run and let me say that for them it’s never enough ), drive to the vet, ensure veterinary follow-up at home, spent so many money in pets that it was no possible for us to heat our living room ( always heater in the rodent room ).
And say goodbye too many time, especially to some of my heart rodents. Several time I thought I was going to die because it was so hurting, or perhaps it was just me who wanted for not suffer anymore.
This leads us to point two!
I had to struggle with mental health, food disorders, alcohol disorder ( not like you imagine, I only need 2 glass of wine or 1 or rhum for be sick the next day and « throw up my guts », stay in the bed all the day with migraine; but like you know you will be sick as the hell and still drink you know you have a problem ). I no longer opened the curtains because the light disgusted me. I cut off contact with everyone, with the pandemic, physical contacts were of course forbidden but I took the opportunity to cut myself off from people virtually too, it was so easy to isolate myself.
When I am in pain I am a devotee of self-torture.
When I haven’t succeeded in saving them all, or if I feel like that I have not done enough, that I deserve to suffer.
But finally I found the strength to come out of this and I’m still here!
But! It’s not only what I did during this long time and during the pandemic!
Then third: I took advantage of these last 2 years for study and graduate!
I’m proud to say now I’m a naturopath (for humans and animals), a phytotherapist, an energetic care and wellbeing practitioner.
I’m ready to stard my own business and start a new page of my life. Of course I will continue to do rescues but I will also take care of me and respect my limits. I still have at home several pets who need me and I need them too, they are my world, they are my rock.
I will start a second blog for my business. Some parts of it will be published here for all my sweet folowers!
I’m so happy and grateful to publish again!
See you soon WordPress Team!
PS: I forgot to say you that few weeks ago, I realised a dream I did a parachute jump!